"Whenever, though, they turn to face God as Moses did, God removes the veil and there they are - face to face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We're free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of His face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like Him." 2 Corinthians 3:16-18 Message
These are verses I read this morning. What they mean to me is that I am going through a transformation and becoming more like what I was created to be but only the Spirit of God is able to determine what is necessary to facilitate the process. That is where trust and faith come in because sometimes that process is just hard.
Today I went to my two week post surgery follow up visit. It has been a rough two weeks especially the first few days after I got home. Now I am able to get up and down without help, walk around the house, and do light chores. I still have pain but it is not severe. Once the steri strips came off I could see the scar is much longer than I first thought. Actually it goes around my belly button and all the way down. I feel a little sad about it ... stupid cancer ... but no one is the same after fighting with this disease. Each day I feel a tiny bit stronger. My appetite is fine and I am sleeping well. Thankful for little things. Surgery was a huge hurdle and I am thankful to be over it.
You can tell a lot about people from observing their body language. My doctor was at ease, smiling and confident as he told me I was doing great and responding well to treatment. He said my scar was healing beautifully. Both he and the physicians assistant said I was ahead of the norm in my recovery. Who knew? I was nervous going to the appointment but they both put me at ease. The surgery was successful and no other organs were affected by the cancer. The majority of the cancer has been removed. This is an amazing answer to prayer considering the stage the disease was in by the time it was discovered. The slight swelling and discomfort I am feeling right now is pretty normal and will gradually fade. Again, I am thankful.
I can take walks and have visitors but I will be restricted from many activities for another six weeks. No pushing, pulling, lifting or stressing my core. I am looking forward to getting back to yoga class and riding my pink bike as soon as I can. Meanwhile I have to get over what I hope to be the last hurdle, nine more weeks of chemotherapy. It will start on March 31. You have been praying for me and cheering me on and I hope you will continue. God hears every word even those not spoken out loud.
